So today was a pretty cool day until late tonight when my stepfather called and was somewhat rude by assuming that my girlfriend wouldn’t relay the call. I’m upset because I never gave my stepfather the number to where I was staying with my girlfriend. I bet he didn’t even call about anything. That’s what really pisses me off. Then I have to here my girlfriend be upset about it. It’s bad enough that she works all the time and we barely spend time together and when we do it’s like she’s edgy because she doesn’t get enough sleep or something. Or could it be that I am sensitive because I’m going through change (living in a different state, haven’t got a gig yet, and just basically a stay at home mother dealing with three kids all the time)??
I’m just at that point in my life where I am just tired of drama, problems especially petty ones, tired of arguing with folk, tired of proving myself, tired of everything. I want to live out the remainder of my life just being me. I just want to be a lesbian that loves to write, dress how I dress, talk how I talk, be myself and die happily and whoever disapproves well you know that saying, “you can kiss me where the sun don’t shine”!
I’m tired and I’m tired of being tired! I just wonder when the sun will shine for me…
